If I sound desperate, I am. I’ve tried everything I can think of – reason, confrontation, repetition, humor – to reach you. It’s not in my nature to give up. In fact, just thinking about it, depresses me. So, this time, I’m writing to ask for help. But it’s not the usual kind of help such as donations of food, clothing or money. Rather, it’s about helping me to help you.
It truly pains me to watch you, everyday, make self-defeating decisions – knowing, as I do, how avoidable they are. Trust me. No matter how many books, articles, songs, and movies are sent out into our collective conscious, they won’t make a difference. Despite the negative consequences for your self-defeating decisions, you won’t learn from them. Nothing will change as long as you reject help from the one person who can help you the most: yourself.
When I was a US Army Behavioral Health Officer, a Commander once told me, “You don’t know what you don’t know.” What if I told you you don’t need to worry ever again? That you have the instincts to make good decisions? That arguing is unnecessary? That no matter how alone or inadequate or misunderstood you feel, you’re not? You’re a lot more complicated and your problems a lot more complex than you give yourself credit for. If they weren’t you would have solved them by now. But that’s what I’m here for.
As a provider, I’m used to the skepticism, even ridicule, of mental health. In fact, the irony is no one understands your reluctance better than I. But by dismissing mental health you are, in fact, rejecting yourself. You’re wandering through life avoiding the essence of who you are. Do you have any idea how self-destructive this is – not just to you personally but to us, as a society?
What the Coronavirus Pandemic reminds us is, regardless of where we live on the planet – China, Iran, United Kingdom, Italy, America – we’re all human. We need air to breath and food and water to sustain us. And there’s one other thing all human beings have in common: emotions. As I frequently remind my patients, its rare you feel one way about something. In fact, most things in life you have a mixture of feelings about. There’s a reason for that: survival.
You need balance in order to thrive. Only when you acknowledge all your feelings and problem solve a compromise between them, can you meet all your needs. Anytime you ignore one of your feelings, you’re ignoring a human need, leaving yourself perpetually dissatisfied, regretful, resentful, conflicted, guilt-ridden, and more. There is no such thing as a wrong or bad feeling. It’s how you cope with your feelings that can be self-defeating, as well as harmful to those around you.
Imagine what would happen if you put your hand on a hot stove and couldn’t feel pain. You’d damage your hand. Uncomfortable feelings work the same way. They protect you from making personally harmful decisions. Now imagine if you could feel the pain, but couldn’t tell where in your body it was coming from. You’d have to move around until the pain stopped, still causing damage while also stressing yourself out and wasting a lot of energy in the process. That’s where psychotherapy comes in.
Despite what you think you know, a therapist’s job is not to give advice. There are plenty of people in your life already doing that. It’s also not my job to judge or criticize. You’re already doing that to yourself. Lastly, it’s not my job to fix your problems. Nobody can do that for you.
A lot of people think therapists are mind-readers. We’re not. We’re just very observant. When I started studying psychology, I realized I “saw” things others didn’t. I dubbed this “wearing Superman glasses.” Over 25 years of practice, I’ve learned to trust my instincts implicitly. I’ve also learned everyone has vulnerabilities and a story. It is hard to put into words how privileged I feel, often being the only person in your life who gets to hear your entire story, entrusted with your vulnerabilities.
Psychotherapy is a journey of empowerment. I like to think of myself as a trail guide, leading us through the peaks and valleys of your past, present and future, along the way taking the time to understand you and, most importantly, encouraging you to be understanding of yourself. Helping you access your innate abilities so you can solve your own problems and reach your full potential.
I’ve always found it ironic that people think, “If I go to therapy, that must mean I’m weak, mentally ill or ‘crazy’,” as though not going to therapy means you’re strong and psychologically fit. Unfortunately, most people go through life driven by feelings they’re not even aware of. Only by acknowledging your feelings can you be proactive as opposed to reactive, and make deliberate decisions.
The difference between someone who attends therapy and someone who doesn’t is the difference between being in control of your emotions and your emotions controlling you. Whom would you rather be?